thankyou precious!~

GOODBYE, MY PRECIOUS LOVE~! ♥
thank you for this 2 months..
is really my happiest time after so long...
wish you all the best and find ur real happiness soon..
take care urself and last but not least,


I LOVE YOU BABYBOY ♥

我 们 都 怕 痛

她 说   她 再  也 不 相    信    真   爱
我 能   给  的 安 全   感    也 用   完
原   本  的 孤 单    已 变   成    不 安
像    看  穿    却  又  放   不 下    依 赖 

看  着  她 低 头    永   敢  牵   着  她 就  走
别  怕   只  要  在  一 起 就  能   穿    越  黑  昼 

她 的 眼  睛   说     她 真   迷 人  真   猜  不 透
她 的 脆  弱  只  有  我 能     看  透 

我 们  都  怕 痛     但  又  好  想    试  着  牵   手
两    颗 心    隐  藏   在  背  後    不 敢  承    诺 

不 想 再 难 过    丢  弃 回  忆 重    新  来  过
让   我 永   远   牵   着  你   把 手   给  我

她 说   她 再  也 不 相    信    真   爱
我 能   给  的 安 全   感    也 用   完
原   本  的 孤 单    已 变   成    不 安
想    看  穿    却  又  放   不 下    依 赖 

看  着  我 低 头    她 说   她 愿   跟  我 走
好  怕   让   她 心  碎  的 痛   又  反  覆 折  磨

我 的 眼  睛   说     笑   或  泪  我 都 会  守   候
她 是  我 唯  一 执  着   的 执  着   ?

我 们  都  怕 痛     但  又  好  想    试  着  牵   手
两    颗 心    隐  藏   在  背  後    不 敢  承    诺 

不 想    再  难  过    丢  弃 回  忆 重    新  来  过
让   我 永   远   牵   着  你   把 手   给  我

我 们  都  怕 痛     但  又  好  想    试  着  牵   手
两    颗 心    隐  藏   在  背  後    不 敢  为  爱 承    诺

不 想    再  难  过    丢  弃 回  忆 重    新  来  过 

让   我 永   远   牵   着  你   把 手   给  我
让   我 永   远   牵   着  你   把 手   给  我

Feeling useless again..
I can't find ways to help you..
Wanna share and relieve for you but it seems difficult as you lock it up in part of you where i can't enter..

Hope you can find ur true self and relieve some of the burden..
私はあなたの側で何が起こるかに関係なく滞在されません

Tired/feeling scared

Ended 3 days of voluntary work..
Super tired..
Today was a bad day after seeing something that make me feels unease..
Finally something brighten up my day and something ruin it again..
I'm not angry but disappointed..
You took my concern as a joke when I'm really worrying about you..
And you Tweeted it out as if its a joke..
Do you know how sad am I???
How I wish I'm right there accompanying you, but guess you won't want it and I do not have the time too..

Nvm.. You just take good cAre of urself..
What you wanna treat my concern as, I dun wanna care and I cant care also..
Thinking if you have regretted making that choice A month ago or not..

(dunno you look thru all my post already not:x)

To baby:

I miss you!!~

out with baby

watched fright night at vivo today :)
awesome movie..
hahahahas...
funny, bloody,thrilling and scary
took bus to baby house for dinner..
slacking now :)
hehehe^^
waiting for surprise to be discovered :P

Happy 1 month baby ♥

Happy monthsary baby!!!!
Time past so fast!!!!
It's been a month le and everything seems like it's only yesterday..
Still remember the first day I know you, you were a total joke saying urself is Aaron kwok and me and vanessa still took ur number and to prank you in the middle of the night..
Ahahah..

And that's when we started texting..
You accompany me to text all day long, accompany me to talk on the phone when I'm semi drunk and worry and waited for me to fall asleep before you go sleep..
Cheering me up when my sales isnt good, and remind me to eat and sleep after my hair is dried:) *even though everytime also nv dry and I doze off*
First guy who surprise me by fetching me from work, fetching me home, hearing you sleep, hoaxing me to sleep by singing lullaby and helping me apply medication.

Baby, thanks for everything you do to make me happy..
Even though can't see you daily or only see you once a week..
The time spend with you always pass very fast because only happy time past fast.
I hope you are happy whenever you are with me..
I will learn to be strong and will be independent so that you can no need to worry about me when you go into NS..

I love you baby!!!~ ♥ ♥
You are my half apple..

first post to you. my ♥

feeling so scared..

i just keep thinking you might leave me anytime.

wanna be with you 24/7 but i know i cant as you and me got our life..

and most importantly is because you needa go NS..

if i ever be with you all day and night,

what will happen to me after you go into NS??

seeing ur tweet today make me so sad and scared.

im afraid if you did any changes, you would leave me..

not because i got no confidence in you,

but is because i got no confidence in myself to keep you by my side.

it's been so long after "him" who i scared of losing sooooo much..

also the one which i will think about "our" future..

hoping to last long long and the last and only one for my rest of my life..

im yearning to spend my time with you..

im so excited about 29th each month..

my dear precious babyboy!!~

i love you

i miss you

i like you 

and last but not least,

i wanna be with you for my rest of the life.

happy day

whoohoo!~~
yesterday was indeed a happy happy day..
last day of school and paper, the found my lost ez link card , met jaq, vincent & ♥  and also the clique ^.^
so many happy events...
wow!!~ happy max!!~ 

3 years have past.

3 years have past..
its been so long..
then what is the feeling that is inside me?
why is there this feeling?
can this feeling be forget and disappear?
i hate having this feeling.
now im really gonna let this feeling and you go..
goodbye my favourite boy~

KHJ in the town!!

yea!!!! hubby arrived in singapore yesterday :P
hehe^^
love love ♥ ♥
hahaha!!!!
omg!!
handsome to the max!!!!!
photos haven transfer so will upload later..
gold hair, with shades, wearing scandals and berms..
handsome and casual max!!!!!
haahhas...gonna see him tmrl again and spam photos le :P
hhahahas....
KIM HYUN JOONG SARANHAEYOOO~!!!!!!!!
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥

E26N ♥

has our E26N Class BBQ at East Coast Park

stayed over..

awesome chat at night under the tree...

was semi drunk thanks to a shot of vodka mix with green tea..

drink too fast -...-'''

then food was yummy~!!!

took lots of photo, night cycling for the first time (Y)

beautiful night scenery..

i really love my class..

even though there are some unhappiness, but i still hope this class can gather and will gather every month at least once.

i will try to upload some pictures here..but i haven went to save from my facebook :)

bored!!~

hihi..
working now..not much customer.. :/
leave class early cause boss forget bring key...
then just ate po luo pao and guo tie ♥
school was alright...
just that damn sleepy!!!

time to update photo : P
on tuesday, had steamboat with michiee, ezekiel, fabian and kenneth

photos taken during shape run :)

saw this frog hahaha!!!*jump jump jump*

hehe^^ photos took during last sat ♥

after that will be cutie vanessa bday : D

food that vanessa's mum prepared!!

and some random photos too :)

marcus's food

heart found in tibits cass brought ♥

evan's food

my food

pay day ~ ♥

payday today~
hahaa...
should i pay my bill abit first or just wait till my cafe pay then pay si :(
i still got so many things haven buy sia : /
just bought a casing only..
wanna buy iphone buttons...
but what should i buy??
angry bird? monkey? skulls??
ahhhhhh!!! so many choices sia : X
going bugis for steamboat for dinner later with mich and ez...
hahhas...first outing or dinner tgt with my new colleagues ♥
awesome!!~
cant wait for 10 to arrive!!!

busy week

last week was a busy week..
monday went out and bought my new shoe :)
then tuesday went to my dear vanessa birthday party...
happy sweet 16 girl ♥

wed to friday working..
hahahs..
fun working :P
then saturday went to church with my fellowships ♥ and ate at  upper thomson road...

this week gonna be another busy week..
monday: harry potter and dinner with babes and ai ai!!!! ♥ ♥
tuesday: meeting ah kok and farewell for andrew...
wed - friday: working hahas..
sat : church with babes ai ai and sisters and brothes ♥
sun: work also!!
hahahas..
busy week...whoohoo~!!
and pay day for this week too !!! &hearts
work more, more money $_$

hee^^

Dun put any expectation when you won't get any you expect

I remember telling myself not to have any expectation into this..
but why do I still hope to have any expectation from you??
What you gave me yesteday was enough more that you did last time and it was more than enough..
why am I still not contentEd??
What do I still want from you??
A yes for the question??
I wanted that answer but I know the answer will never come out from your mouth and it will never will..
Me and you will just be stuck in these gray section and not a yes or a no..
I know this is the best for the both of us..
But....
I just wanna definite answer but I dun want to know the answer as it will destroy what we have now..
I'm just gonna tell myself from now on is to not to have any hope..

work

first day of work at stitch today.
worked from 5 till now...
cheryl, wen wen, han yang and pokka came visit me :P
thanks peeps...
closed some sales and managed to get hold abit..
but still nervous..
just completed RJ and cognitive challenge :P
hope tmrl will be a good day..
work tmrl too : >

该忘了你对不对

what faith can do

KHJ in the town!!

kim hyun joong is coming to town in  17 - 19 august.

people that like hyun joong please go down and support him and see him...

he will be happy

hubby in the town!!

whoohoo!!
hubby KHJ is coming to singapore in 17 - 19 august.
yay!!!! hope time wont clash with school...

after half a year or more than that of not seeing him...
love sick >.<

anyone who love KHJ or free to accompany tell me!!!! : D

Teng HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! ♥

today is teng bday :)

happy 18th birthday ah !!! 

♥ ♥ ♥

muacks!!

meeting girls later whoo!!~~
♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥ ♥
gonna have science UT later..
grrrrrr....
presentation just now was CMI!!!!
didnt know how to explain my slides >.<
thanks vanathi for explaining for me : D
now hoping time to pass and rush off to meet my girls :)

Facts Of Hubby KHJ ♥

1) The date of his birthday has three numbers 6 in it (6/6/1986)
2) He is a leader of SS501
3) His nicknames are Kim dog cow, walking statue, little groom/ kid groom, leader, jihoo sunbae
4) He scares of bugs/insects
5) He likes manga/ manhwa
6) He likes skull 
7) He is a realist (with an economic mind)
8. He likes to sleep but he feels sleeping is a waste of time (that's the reasons why he sleeps late cause he doesn't wanna sleep, wants to do something so not to waste time & therefore makes him hard to wake up early.)
9) He will choose love over friendship
10) He can play guitar (He knows a lot of styles)
11) He believes in "love at first sight"
12) He hates to say mushy and cheesy stuffs
13) He calls his girlfriend "Yah"
14) He ran away from home in 9 grade going to10 grade because of Seo Taiji 's song Ultramania
15) He gets nervous at Karaoke 
16) His complex are his lips and eye bags
17) He has a phobia for older people
18) He had 3 near death experiences when he ran away from home
19) He is shy around people he doesnt know
20) He can't feel pain when people pinch him
21) He likes to fishing
22) He is a very competitive person
23) He can sleep anywhere, anytime and he can't easily wake up
24) He is a very detail person. 
25) He is extremely ticklish around his ribs.
26) He also likes to eat his lettuce separate from his bbq/bulgogi.
27) He's afraid of the sea because of sharks. Thanks to the movie Jaws.
28) He mentioned that his ideal girl was someone like Lee Hyori.
29) He lost a lot of weight for his role in BOF.
30) He is the King Sleeper of SS501. (Takes a lot to wake him up) 
31) He hates people command him to do something
32) His blood type is B
33) He is a Gemini
34) His family include MOM, DAD, Grandma, And Older brother
35) He doesn't like girl go back and forth between men.
36) He is a very conservative person. doesnt like his gf/ wife to wear revealing clothes.
37) He sleeps in his underwear because he don't like wearing cloth in sleep
38) Seo Taiji is the person he wants to meet the most.
39) He memorizes phone #s that he uses most often.
40) HE wears contact lenses.
41) His life motto is “Since you were already born, you should work hard to make your name known, help your less fortunate neighbours while living a life that earns respect.”, "life is one shot/strike"
42) He is a cold son who doesn't talk much. He can never say "thank you" or "I love you."
43) He listens to music or goes fishing or meet with his friends and relax over whisky when he's under stress.
44) He likes to drink soju.
45) He goes on Daum (korean website) frequently.
46) He likes his girlfriend to be a person who is as comfortable as a friend.
47) He broke up with his last gf in 2005 right after he debuted.
48) He co-owns a chicken restaurant with his childhood friends.
49) His favorite season is winter because that is when flies, dragonflies and mosquitoes are gone.
50) His first kiss was when he was in High School.
51) His favorite color is black
52) His favorite athlete is Kim Yuna (figure skater) 
53) He's obsessed with aliens
54) He doesn't like coffee.. regardless of drinking or people who drinks it
55) He cannot stand doing nothing. (Needs to do something so not to waste time)
56) He won the "Popularity" award for his role as Yoon Ji Hoo in BOF
57) When he was young, he dreamed of becoming a scientist.
58) He wants four children.
59) He doesn't wear any cologne or perfume
60) He likes rock music
61) His role model is Yu Hye Jin/ Yoo Haejin
62) He had watched the movie The War of Flowers starring YHJ about 20 times, so much so that he has memorized the lines.
63) He likes to eat Ramen and very good at cooking it
64) He can also plays Piano
65) He likes to be in a Rock Band, but didn't make it because his management company sent him to study dance instead.
66) He likes to have big concert hall where he can perform when he is retired or has lots of money like Yoon Ji Hoo.
67) His future plan includes study abroad in America
68) He is knows how to speak Japanese
69) He likes to give it all in a relationship
70) He has three things that he most worried when he is abroad: his cellphone, shaver, and conditioner for his hair. He worried that he might not have them at all time. They are very important to him.
71) Because of his big and pretty eyes, people used to call him "Morning Star" when he was young.
72) He is very sentimental even though he is blunt and doesn’t talk much.
73) He is an ‘ordinary guy’ who doesn’t catch any attention from female students of his same age while he was younger maybe because he is wearing eyeglasses from 2nd year elementary school onwards
74) He would like to ride UFO
75) He is very serious when it comes to work
76) He doesn't like to let people down and have high expectation of himself
77) He wants to be the #1 Star of the Universe
78) He always work to the best of his ability, whether it is acting or singing.
79) He always strive for improvements and to be the best in things he does: singing, acting, and performing in variety shows
80) He really loves variety shows because it shows a different side of him, especially they show how interesting he can be.
81) He enjoyed signing autographs
82) When he is unhappy, he will go to the office [studio perhaps] to practice his dance.
83) He likes to make people who like him(his fans) happy 
84) He likes to joke around and lighten the mood of everyone around him
85) He likes to be a perfectionist
86) He started drinking in first year of High school (about grade 10)
87) When he was young he has never got any allowances from his parents
88) His favorite foods include chicken feet and pig head meat and skin side dishes.
89) At first he didn't like the nickname "4dimentional" because he thought it meant he's a retard or crazy person but now he interpret it as having "unique charms"
90) He considers saying " Hello" and "good bye" important in his daily life.
91) His 3 celebrities best friends are Top(bigbang). Mikcy Yoochun and Hero Jaejoong (dbsk). 
92) He had a crush on a girl for like 3 years and then dated her for another 3 years or so, including the time he was working as a singer with the "Warning" song
93) Instead of being invisible, he wish he could move really fast. HE want to do the schedules quickly so he can get another hour of sleep.
94) His dream is to rent a small stage when he is in his 40-50's and to perform for fans who have become parents. And to go have soju with them after the performance or to do charity events
95) He dropped out in first year of high school. 
96) He used to get really good grades... like... top 10 in his school, but he gave it all up for music.
97) He brought his first base guitar when he was 14 for 70 000 won( about 70 dollars)
98) He went to Chamshil middle school
99) He thinks that "Happiness doesn't come out of a bank account".
100) He considers his friends are the most valuable to him
101) He thinks popularity is just a brief moment of spotlight
102) He thinks that people who badmouth people behind their backs are the scariest.
103) He wants to be someone who can acts and says what he wants without worrying about what others say.
104) After he dropped out and ran away from home, he lived with his friends for almost one year. 
105) The reason he like comic books so much is because when he ran away from home and had no place to go he went to comic book shop that cost 1400 won per hour.
106) He was trained 1 and a half year under DSP before he debut
107) He was scouted by a fraud company and was almost get sell to China for 5 000 000 won (~ $5000) contract fee. 
108) Unless he's kick out by DSP he would like to stay at DSP (but now, he's in KEYEAST)
109) He wants to get married around thirty and he wants to be a good father and a good husband.
110) The scar on his face is from his time working in constructions as a teenager.
111) He hates bugs and birds the most
112) When asked to describe himself as an animal, he said he's a lion
113) He was asked which part of himself he likes the most, he said it's his eyes
114) His forte is in singing and dancing
115) He could imitate the voice of andrea kim
116) He loves to eat tomatoes because they help him maintain his weight
117) First time he shows his cute act on TV was in Heroine 6, Ep 85
118) He does not believe in being friends with your "Ex"
119) He loves freedom and listen to Radio because of his Blood Type, B
120) He is an anime Fan
121) He is a Berserk fan 
122) He believes dating is the most important thing to do before marriage
123) He believes action speaks more than words
124) He's actually not very good with his words, because he's afraid he may offend people in a way or another 

好的事情

My cute turtle on my monthsary

Baby bought this for me and waited for me at my house and was being treated as a suspicious looking person...
Cause he was loitering outside my house with the turtle...
Slack Awhile and meet April downstairs and went amici for dinner :)
Hahha...
Yummy steak tenderloin and chartonny white house pour:))
Thanks baby :) &hearts

random updates

UT1 is over and the results are not all out yet and next week is UT2 already >.<
been so sleepy these few weeks..
zZzZ..
went out pooling after school,attending talks after school, hanging out with friends are awesome!!
just a shooking news is that UT2 is harder than UT1 by 20% for programming.
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i think i GG soon le..
all the things just cant get into my brain.

nxt week faci say changing team..
just hope i wont be that "lucky" to get group with "someone" again...
*praying reallllll hard*



last but not least;

HAPPY 4TH MONTHSARY BIFI ♥

NEW MEDIA

OMG!!!
today lesson was shag....
so stress and difficult.
stupid background dun like me by not appearing with correct codes and then internet so laggy...
-.-'''
 so damn tired sia...
ez-link card no money,no concession..
sianz sia...
wat stupid day is this siol....

im back

schools starts le...

today is 2nd day of school reopen...

whole week holidays have been working and going out...

damn fun but tiring..

and i haven charge my energy back >.<

gotta charge my energy back one day..

went to uss on sunday with baby and his family..

was damn damn fun...

hahahs..

got tan abit...

and im loving the roller coaster rides...

hahahas...

the mood of studying is not there -.-'''

1 more day

1 more day of school and 1.5 weeks of holidays awaiting for us.
today is New Media.
learnt CSS style today.
wasnt doing much cause very sleepy and tired.
plus not in the mood wanna sleep>.<

then started doing, at first dun understand but slowly i understand le and then did the head and body.
but for the table i not sure so copied from grp member.
worksheet was totally wrong from the first qn.
FML..
lucky darling send me the worksheet.
haven been doing anything for the whole damn day.
haiz!!!!

Sorry that I loved you- Anthony neely

For all of the time that I tried for your smile
For making you think that I was worth the while
So your love love love love love would be mine
For sending you flowers and holding your hand
That no one was there to take a stand
But then love love love made us blind


And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I hold you tight
And I'm So sorry for...


Making you love me and saying goodbye
For being the one that taught you how to cry
It was love love love and it passed us by
For giving you every thing that you dreamed
For taking it back when I fled the scene
Sorry love, for wasting your time


And I'm so sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
I'm so sorry that I loved you
Sorry that I needed you
Sorry that I hold you tight


And apology now after all of this time
Won't make my difference tonight
But I'm hoping I'm Sorry will open your mind
To love love love love in your life
Sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry doesn't turn back time
For all that I have done to you
I wish that I could make it right
So sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I fell through
Sorry I was falling in love with you
I'm sorry that it came true
But sorry do can't turn back time
I'm sorry that I loved you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
I'm so sorry that I loved you
I'm sorry that I hurt you
Sorry that I loved you

Random

有時放手也是一種愛

Happy 3rd monthsary

Happy 3rd monthsary baby:)
Sorry didn't accompany you today cause last minute needa work...
♥
Love yea:)

Mirror Effect ♥

hehe^^ look at those cool and funny pic i took when im bored in class :DDDD

other effects from youcam 4...
these program is freaking good and cool!!!!