Dun put any expectation when you won't get any you expect

I remember telling myself not to have any expectation into this..
but why do I still hope to have any expectation from you??
What you gave me yesteday was enough more that you did last time and it was more than enough..
why am I still not contentEd??
What do I still want from you??
A yes for the question??
I wanted that answer but I know the answer will never come out from your mouth and it will never will..
Me and you will just be stuck in these gray section and not a yes or a no..
I know this is the best for the both of us..
But....
I just wanna definite answer but I dun want to know the answer as it will destroy what we have now..
I'm just gonna tell myself from now on is to not to have any hope..